Brain is tired
All drained, weightless
Trying to see forward, darkness
Clutching, clawing,
Shreds of light evade
These fingers
Fingers that have scratched and struggled
Lungs that have tried to suck in air
Only to gasp in despair
Drowning
Alive but not there
Semblances of humanity
Memory lapses of hapiness
But I feel nothing, senseless
Looking at faces, and trying to face this
Like a person from the village
Presented with a plate of cheeses
Laughter, I miss this
Try to smile
But my teeth chatter and sound like hisses
Go about the day dreaming of chocolate kisses
Eat a meal but it tastes like sand paper and weeds
Please
Crack a bottle of whiskey
Tip the bottle and kiss it
For a moment
A grasping moment
I’m alive and I feel it
Crawl down my throat
Stinging and burning
I’m no connoisseur
But brethren, messirs
Its amazing
Like a dragon
Breathe out fumes and catch on fire
Gaze at the bottle
Caress its outlines with my eyes
And resurect its deepest desires
Finger the rim of the glass
Swirl the ice
Sip
Thats class
Shaken not stirred
Like Bond’s bond
With the waitress
And I look into the night
Smile in the dark
Yes, I can beat this.